Day 1 

        *ChEerS!*

Happy 1st day of lent! 

Today I feel:

-tired
-crazy
-energetic
...all at the same time?

Perhaps I'm withdrawing.

 Smoothie:
PB and J
1 cup of unsweetened almond milk
handful of ice
1/2 frozen packet of acai
1 cup of organic blueberries
2/3 of a frozen banana
2 handfuls of power greens (baby kale, baby spinach, chard)- bought box of this from Whole Foods
3 Tbs of PB powder
1 Tbs of chia seeds
1 packet of Stevia

It looks like mud and tastes pretty good. I will use mixed frozen berries next time, which consists of strawberries, blackberries, raspberries, and blueberries instead of just blueberries and acai.

Because it's my first day of lent, I was still completely unsatisfied after this smoothie. I was full, but craving something else. I started slightly freaking out because it was finally hitting me...i can't eat anything else, I can't snack. So Stephen gave me some citrus-infused Kombucha and it actually did the trick.

Yay Kombucha! This brand is the best because they don't add refined sugars or agave.


 What is God saying?

I am no stranger to diets, over-exercise, and major body-image insecurities. My mind has been so clouded with these issues that I often lose sight of Jesus. Food and self-image become my God.

That said, I would say I am very aware of how desperately I need God if I'm going to get through these 40 days without chewing. I would even say this seems borderline impossible.
When the majority of what I will be swallowing is blended up fruits and vegetables, I will feel unsatisfied. All that means is that I must find my satisfaction in God-which I am SUPER down with.

This morning I woke up and immediately felt the need to get on my face and pray. I've never been able to go 40 days, but I feel so much grace on this. God's going to reveal a lot of things in me, this week alone, and I'm ready and willing to hear it from Him.