Day 5

Drinking out of a cool mug (that we have had for a while) was something that made me happy today.
--Starting to appreciate the small things--

How I feel:

Let me just say that sometimes I can't pinpoint how I feel. 
Lately I've been learning that just because I think that "I don't have feelings" or am "numb", doesn't mean I'm strong and cool. It means I don't know how to healthily confront who I am and events that have happened in my past. When I don't know how I feel I go to a list. Maybe you will want to use it too or maybe you don't need one, but I highlighted the ones that I identify with today. Do it with me and maybe even ask why you felt that way.

 
   
 HAPPY, cheerful, delighted, elated, encouraged, glad, gratified, joyful, lighthearted, overjoyed, pleased, relieved, satisfied, thrilled, secure.   
       

LOVING, affectionate, cozy, passionate, romantic, sexy, warm, tender, responsive, thankful,    appreciative, refreshed, pleased.   
     
      
 HIGH ENERGY, energetic, enthusiastic, excited, playful, rejuvenated, talkative, pumped, motivated, driven, determined, obsessed.   
       

AMAZED, stunned, surprised, shocked, jolted, enlightened.   
       

ANXIOUS, uneasy, embarrassed, frustrated, nauseated, ashamed, nervous, restless, worried,             stressed.   
       

CONFIDENT, positive, secure, self-­‐assured, assertive.   
       

PEACEFUL, relieved, at ease, calm, comforted, cool, relaxed, serene.   
      
 AFRAID, scared, anxious, apprehensive, boxed in, burdened, confused, distressed, fearful,   
 frightened, guarded, hard pressed, overwhelmed, panicky, paralyzed, tense, terrified, worried,   
 insecure.   
      
 TRAUMATIZED, shocked, disturbed, injured, damaged.   
       

ANGRY, annoyed, controlled, manipulated, furious, grouchy, grumpy, irritated, provoked,      frustrated.   
      
 LOW ENERGY, beaten down, exhausted, tired, weak, listless, depressed, detached, withdrawn,   
 indifferent, apathetic.   
       

ALONE, avoidant, lonely, abandoned, deserted, forlorn, isolated, cut off, detached.   
        

SAD, unhappy, crushed, dejected, depressed, desperate, despondent, grieved,  heartbroken, heavy, weepy.   
      
 BETRAYED, deceived, fooled, duped, tricked, cynical   
      
 CONFUSED, baffled, perplexed, mystified, bewildered.   
     
 ASHAMED, guilty, mortified, humiliated, embarrassed, exposed.   
      
 DISSAPOINTED, let down, disheartened, disillusioned, distrustful.    

Liquid: Soup!!

It is what it is yo... I'm freaking craving salt so I drove to Sprouts to pick up some soup.

It's day 5 which must mean you start craving weird things. 

Thai-American Soup

-2 cups of Potato Leek Soup

-2 cups of Tom Yum Soup Base

-a few dashes of Cayenne Pepper

-a few dashes of Ginger

 

What is God saying?

Today I don't know what God is saying. Today I just wish I could rest on His shoulder and relax. I don't know maybe crack a joke or two with Him. I want to hear God tell me a joke, that would be so awesome.

Maybe that's what He's saying. That we don't have to talk- He can just chill with me :)

Amen and goodnight.

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